Covet

A girl fell in love with a married man. A very married man with kids and a wife he has loved wholeheartedly for over 10 years. His undying loyalty and love for his wife and family is what she fell in love with, aside from the fact that she she thought he would look good naked and all she could think about was how badly she wanted to lick his lips. She starred at him, memorizing his face for her fantasies later. She wanted him bad and if she gave in to what she wanted just once, she could have it, taste it, and feel him for real. She knew it. It was her move to let it happen.

This perfect man, that she wanted so bad...could never love her. He has made that clear. She still seeks him out for affection. She likes the way her head feels on his shoulder and his arm resting around her. She likes the way it fills up her loneliness, even if it was just for an short evening. The feeling is mutual, but his feeling are guided partly by flattery, curiosity, horniness, and genuine caring. It scares him a little, but he likes the way she makes him feel. It's the first time since his wife, that another woman made him feel special without having the (dis)advantage of knowing everything about his soul. This other woman, just loved him because he was beautiful to her.

She's not as beautiful as he saw his wife. He did not love her, but he cared about her, like he cares about everyone. He's kind, without being fake, and she knows it, and it only makes her ache for him more.

She knows its wrong to love him. If it was just lust, it would be over and done with. She knows it, but part of her doesn't want to care. She wants this man. She wants to love him. She loves him more than she should, and more than he would ever be willing to give her in return. It's a dangerous game to play with her heart. She's not 20 anymore. She's at her expiration date. She wants a boyfriend, a husband, a family of her own...but its so hard and it all seems so far away from her...and she's so lonely....